This isn’t about grieving, just assuming the complete absence of your family and all the inheritance.
I’d pay off my medical debt and go back to university. I’m so tired. I just want to learn and stop struggling. I don’t even qualify for my own debt so I have to have it in someone else’s name, being bound to an abuser…
Internally celebrate, publicly mourn
I wouldn’t celebrate myself, but I wouldn’t mourn either. The only thing having me in contact with my family is my debt and for them the social expectations and I guess having someone to verbally abuse comes in handy as well.